When it all comes falling down

Well after our last meeting with Cade's teacher we started to work more with him and his attitude. He is on a contract right now and it doesnt appear to be working so well. Jeff and I are really concerned about him and the way we see him progressing. He seems to get distracted very easily, has a very hard time listening and staying seated, he also is a very emotional boy and lately he has gotten emotional over things that you would never think he would. His sister was acting like a cat and for some reason Cade did not like this so he started crying and moved to the corner of the couch just in tears. She was not even doing anything directly to him. That was not the only time that he reacted to something like that. Well we decided to go to the peditrician to see what he thought... A little back history on the last episode we had at school. Cade started making fun of a kid who is "special" along with his friends and this boy proceded to take a pencil and throw it at Cade's eye. Well no damage was done but we ended up sitting at his school all day to ensure that he did not misbehave again. So this led us to the peditrician. Well when we saw the ped he had us talk about Cade and what our concerns were. He did not ask us questions or tell us what he was looking for. Once we were done he stated that Cade has several symptoms of ADHD and possibly depression. I just sat there wondering why my genes had to pass onto my son. I have depression and have had it for a very longtime. The ped told us that since I had been diagnosed with depression when I was young that it increased my childs chance of having depression. Well I know what you all are thinking about the ADHD part. Seeing as that is one of the top diagnosis that ped's give kids that seem difficult but my ped is not like that. He told us that he doesnt like to just put a kid on meds and hope it is the problem but that he feels that we should have the test done to help diagnois it and to try every possible thing before deciding on meds. I agree with this 100% since I have been taking meds what feels like my whole life. We make our game plan and leave the office and in the car ride home I just think why did I have kids when I knew that my "craziness" which Jeff and I call it could be passed on to my children. Why would I want them to go through anything like what I have? Why would I want to see them so sad that they cant even function and then I turn and look at my beautiful angels just smiling at me and it just rips me apart to know that they could live a life with such sadness. I love my kids and I will do anything to help prevent this... Just have to find out how.

Spring Cleaning

So we started to do a little bit of Spring Cleaning on Friday since Jeff and I had the day off. We got together what we could and took it to the DI. Next was the basement... As you know I was very into Stamp'in up and making cards. Well since I started working at my current place of employment I stopped making cards because of how busy I had become. It has been over 2 years since I really have sat down and made cards and at this point I don't think I ever will. So here is my dilemma, how to get rid of all this stuff. I don't want to just give it away seeing as I have spent a pretty penny on it. I was going to do e bay but Jeff doesn't think that is a good idea... I could have a yard sale. Anyone know someone who is really into stamp'in up that would like to buy some stamps and supplies? If anyone has some suggestions I am listening. :)

Some Kind of New Year

Well usually you see these types of post come the day after New Years... All the resolutions, all the hopes for the year. Well mine is a few months late but that is ok because that doesnt make it any less important. So here are some of my goals for the year 2007:

1: I want to lose this extra 15 pounds I am carrying.Yeah I know this is the same goal of a lot of people. Jeff and I are doing good though. We are trying to get our whole family which is me, Jeff, Cade and Reise on a healthier diet. Nothing is worse then the sound of your daughter saying that you have tubby sides or that she feels fat. I have to watch what I saw around her more. Hopefully I will get this goal completed before the new year seeing as summer is almost here.

2: I want to take photography classes. After seeing my sisters friend Amy's pictures it makes me more and more excited about signing up for classes. I wish I could be take amazing pictures like she does. Hopefully soon I will.

3: I want to spend more time with my family. My type of work makes it almost impossible during the months Oct thru March but I will keep trying. Who knows if the photography works the way I want maybe I could do that instead. hehehe

4: Get my depression under control. I use to only have episodes(the name I like to use) every couple of years but the older I get the more they seem to happen. I really wish one day hey would just make a magic pill that could help get over this. I hate it but this is the cards I was dealt and I should feel lucky seeing as I have a sister with Lupus and a brother in law with Cystic Fibrosis.

Well these are my goals and I hope I reach them... Wish me luck