My Final Project

I finally did my final project for school. I found out that I got an A in the class! YEAH. Well my teacher thought that my photos showed how much I have learned. So here you go. I hope you enjoy. I did my project on the Appreciation of Family :)

Fun with the Kids

So this is one of the first "photo shoots" I have done with my new camera! I love that the kids were just having so much fun.

I got Elfed

Thanks to my brother in law click the link below to see my family elfed :)

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=9587350431

6 Things about Me

So my mom tagged me and like her I usually do not do these things but I will just for her :)

1. I have 4 sugar gliders, 2 that are joey's that I am hand raising which means I have to wake up ever 2 hours to hand feed them :). I wouldn't change it though because they show so much love.

2. I am taking photography classes because I want to start taking pictures on the side :)

3. I have been with my husband for 9 years now and we have had our ups and downs but have gotten through it and are just living each day falling more in love.

4. I have been dealing with depression for as long as I can remember and have only made it this far because of my family, husband and children.

5. My husband is teaching me how to snowboard and is the most amazing teacher! Hopefully I will learn this year :)

6. I have 2 of the most amazing kids ever!

Halloween

No that is not Jeff and I dressed up as the ice family. Reise wanted her uncle Jason and aunt Whitney :)

My Baby Suggies

Here are the suggies mom and dad







Here are my new sugar gliders. Aren't they just cute and small? I love them!

My Babies are getting so big

The kids pictures from school. Look how big they are getting. Reise is in 1st grade and Cade is in 2nd. Both are loving it and doing very well. Each of their teachers have expressed how much they love having them in their class and how great they are.. This is great to hear as you all know. Cade has lost his 2 front teeth with a little help from mom and dad. Hehehe The last one Dad was trying to get out which you can only imagine how Cade was acting. Jeff ended up hitting Cade's hand causing it to hit the tooth which then feel out. Cade has been telling people that his dad punched his tooth out. hahaha It is funny yet sad. Reise is catching up with Cade in the teeth losing along with everything else since she is his size and from what her teacher tells is acts like she is 7 1/2 and knows a lot of what a 7 1/2 would. Boy are we introuble. Well that is an update of our little family so far. I will try to put updates up here more seeing as my sis J and her husband J are the only ones on my side still in Utah :( Love and miss you all.

Look A like Meter Reise

Look A like Meter Cade

Mexico

Well we are back from our paradise to the daily grind. We had a lot of fun as you can see from the pictures. Jeff and I got to swim with dolphins which has always been a dream of mine and it was amazing. I am glad to be home because I really missed my kids but sometimes I just look at the picture of the beach and imagine I am there again with the man of my dreams....

More Sprinkler Fun

Girl Talk

So as my niece and my daughter were hanging out i took some pictures that just reminded me of my sisters and our girl talk on the tramp when we were little. We had so much fun with Lu and here are some of the great pics we got of our time together. Reise is very upset about the fact that Lu doesn't live here and can't spend more time with her and the other cousin's.

Added Family Members

So we just recently got 2 new additions to our family. The boys name is Sug Sug and the girls name is Lilo. They are sugar gliders and are very cute.

Happy Father's Day

Well this is a little late sorry. I just wanted to say Happy Father's Day to my wonderful husband who is amazing. He is such a wonderful father. He always is thinking of things to do with the kids and always making sure that they are having fun. I also wanted to thank my dad for being such an amazing father and friend. He has been such a great example and has always been there for me. I went through a very troubled time and he stood by me every step of the way even though he did not agree with my choices he understood that I needed to make them to learn from them. I can not believe that he has loved me unconditionaly because at times I didnt even love myself. He helped raise 5 very differnet girls who always made a point of telling him what to do:) He is such a great man, no words can describe the love and appreciation I have for him. Happy Father's Day to all you dad's. Hope it was a wonderful day

Mother's Day

Well I want to start by thanking my amazing mom for always being there for me. Here are just a few reasons.
1. She is the worlds best mother and has helped me more then she will ever know.
2. I have put my mom through so much and she has loved me unconditionally. I am so lucky to have her as my mother!
3. She is always there to listen to me when I needed someone.
4. She always gives me advice on what to do.
5. She never judges me or treats me like I am different even though I am.
6. She makes me laugh when I need to and lets me cry when I feel like everything is wrong without telling me what I am doing wrong.
7. She teaches me how to do things like quilting and making baby burp clothes.
8. She watched my kids so that I could go out on a date with my husband.
9. She let me live with her when i was having troubles.
10. She always includes me in everything even if it isnt something I normally would do.
11. When I moved out she gave me a ton of house stuff for my birthday.
These are only a few things that I love about my mom. There are a million more!
My Mother is the best and one day I hope to be like her!

Idaho Weekend

Well this is a little late but I have been dealing with sick family members and work. So last weekend we spent the weekend with the family for my new nephews blessing... He is such a cutie pie and I wish I could have taken him home with me. It was great having almost all the sisters together again. We had a fun weekend such as car rides with K driving like she was in a low rider, it was pretty funny to see the looks from other people as my sister K waved her arms in the air like she just didn't care. We had such a funny car ride with 3 of us sisters, my mom and my brother-in-law J all making fun of each other and just laughing tell the tears started running. This was exactly what I needed. I have been having such a hard time lately and this weekend made things seem so simple and so less complicated. The drive home well was another story. My husband got the flu or something like it on Sunday which was the day we were driving home so after 2 hours of pulling over we decided to get a hotel in Twin Falls. We got home Monday afternoon and decided that we had to get our passports since we are going out of town in August to Cancun. Wow who would have thought it would take 15 weeks for our passport. Well at least the first part of the weekend was fun.

When it all comes falling down

Well after our last meeting with Cade's teacher we started to work more with him and his attitude. He is on a contract right now and it doesnt appear to be working so well. Jeff and I are really concerned about him and the way we see him progressing. He seems to get distracted very easily, has a very hard time listening and staying seated, he also is a very emotional boy and lately he has gotten emotional over things that you would never think he would. His sister was acting like a cat and for some reason Cade did not like this so he started crying and moved to the corner of the couch just in tears. She was not even doing anything directly to him. That was not the only time that he reacted to something like that. Well we decided to go to the peditrician to see what he thought... A little back history on the last episode we had at school. Cade started making fun of a kid who is "special" along with his friends and this boy proceded to take a pencil and throw it at Cade's eye. Well no damage was done but we ended up sitting at his school all day to ensure that he did not misbehave again. So this led us to the peditrician. Well when we saw the ped he had us talk about Cade and what our concerns were. He did not ask us questions or tell us what he was looking for. Once we were done he stated that Cade has several symptoms of ADHD and possibly depression. I just sat there wondering why my genes had to pass onto my son. I have depression and have had it for a very longtime. The ped told us that since I had been diagnosed with depression when I was young that it increased my childs chance of having depression. Well I know what you all are thinking about the ADHD part. Seeing as that is one of the top diagnosis that ped's give kids that seem difficult but my ped is not like that. He told us that he doesnt like to just put a kid on meds and hope it is the problem but that he feels that we should have the test done to help diagnois it and to try every possible thing before deciding on meds. I agree with this 100% since I have been taking meds what feels like my whole life. We make our game plan and leave the office and in the car ride home I just think why did I have kids when I knew that my "craziness" which Jeff and I call it could be passed on to my children. Why would I want them to go through anything like what I have? Why would I want to see them so sad that they cant even function and then I turn and look at my beautiful angels just smiling at me and it just rips me apart to know that they could live a life with such sadness. I love my kids and I will do anything to help prevent this... Just have to find out how.

Spring Cleaning

So we started to do a little bit of Spring Cleaning on Friday since Jeff and I had the day off. We got together what we could and took it to the DI. Next was the basement... As you know I was very into Stamp'in up and making cards. Well since I started working at my current place of employment I stopped making cards because of how busy I had become. It has been over 2 years since I really have sat down and made cards and at this point I don't think I ever will. So here is my dilemma, how to get rid of all this stuff. I don't want to just give it away seeing as I have spent a pretty penny on it. I was going to do e bay but Jeff doesn't think that is a good idea... I could have a yard sale. Anyone know someone who is really into stamp'in up that would like to buy some stamps and supplies? If anyone has some suggestions I am listening. :)

Some Kind of New Year

Well usually you see these types of post come the day after New Years... All the resolutions, all the hopes for the year. Well mine is a few months late but that is ok because that doesnt make it any less important. So here are some of my goals for the year 2007:

1: I want to lose this extra 15 pounds I am carrying.Yeah I know this is the same goal of a lot of people. Jeff and I are doing good though. We are trying to get our whole family which is me, Jeff, Cade and Reise on a healthier diet. Nothing is worse then the sound of your daughter saying that you have tubby sides or that she feels fat. I have to watch what I saw around her more. Hopefully I will get this goal completed before the new year seeing as summer is almost here.

2: I want to take photography classes. After seeing my sisters friend Amy's pictures it makes me more and more excited about signing up for classes. I wish I could be take amazing pictures like she does. Hopefully soon I will.

3: I want to spend more time with my family. My type of work makes it almost impossible during the months Oct thru March but I will keep trying. Who knows if the photography works the way I want maybe I could do that instead. hehehe

4: Get my depression under control. I use to only have episodes(the name I like to use) every couple of years but the older I get the more they seem to happen. I really wish one day hey would just make a magic pill that could help get over this. I hate it but this is the cards I was dealt and I should feel lucky seeing as I have a sister with Lupus and a brother in law with Cystic Fibrosis.

Well these are my goals and I hope I reach them... Wish me luck

For My Wonderful Husbands Birthday

Well my wonderful husband turned 29 on the 24th. I thought I would list 29 reasons I love my husband even though there are a lot more reasons here are just some of them.
1. He loves me unconditional which really is amazing
2. He helps me out so much with the kids when I have to work late
3. He sets goals and no matter how hard they are he still completes them.
4. He knows just what to say to make me laugh so hard I snort.
5. He is an amazing father
6. He is a softy when it comes to his dog
7. He brings me treats when he knows that I have had a really bad day
8. He makes random comments to make me laugh
9. He loves to watch Scrubs with me
10. He is trying to teach me how to snowboard and is so patient
11. He listens to me when I need to vent
12. He would do anything for his family
13. First date we had he helped my dad clean out the garage
14. He always is there for me whenever I need him.
15. He makes me eggs in heart shaped bread for breakfast
16. He lets me sleep in
17. He picks the kids up every night even though he has school
18. He spoils me
19. He stands by me even if he doesn't agree
20. He is intelligent
21. He has amazing Dimples
22. He tells me that he loves me like a fat kid loves cake
23. He spends all his spare time with the kids and I
24. He plays dance dance revolution with the kids
25. He treats his daughter like a princess
26. He watches deal or no deal with my daughter on the Spanish Channel
27. He sings in the car with the kids
28. He lets my sister hug him and tell him she loves him and he says it back :)
29. For our anniversary he signed us up for Ball Room dance lessons.

It has been several months since I posted last mainly because my work is so darn busy and all my free time I spend with my family. The last couple of months have been pretty hard. When my parents moved I was sad but I felt that I would be ok because I could still talk to them everyday and my mom would be here to visit. Well this did not turn out to be. I am actually having a very hard time with them being gone. It is amazing how much 2 people can make life just seem a little less bright. I still talk to my mom a ton but the fact that I can not go and see her smiling face or see my father's big brown eye's whenever I wish has really taken a toll. I write this not to get sympathy but to help with the sadness. I went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago.. The doctors office my mom use to work at. When I got there everyone talked about how much they missed my mom and it seemed they looked at me as if asking for me to smile and tell them all was fine with my parents. When I saw my doctor he just looked at me and he knew that the smile I had was not real. He said "I am sure it is hard for you. Your mom is a wonderful women." It took me almost biting my tongue off to not cry like a big old baby right then and there. We talked about how I was feeling and what I should do to help with my issues. He said to start writing things down, not necessarily a journal but like a memo where I can just write how I am feeling about things. Hence the reason for this blog. As I was walking out to the area where my mother use to sit I found myself just staring at her old desk. The lady behind the desk cleared her throat and my doctor made sure to advise them that I was Linda's daughter which then was followed by each saying how much they missed my mother. My doctor commented on how my mom took away all the fun things she had on her desk and all the wonderful pictures. I told him to keep talking about it if he wanted to see me start crying like a baby. He smiled and said for me to not cry and then walked away. Why would seeing my mothers empty desk spark that much sadness? With all that has been going on I realized that I had not been able to even stop and just feel. Well now that work is slowing down I sure am feeling and it really scares me. I do not like to get this way because when I have before it just has gotten worse. Hopefully I can get over this bump quickly. Boy do I miss my parents!